It’s been a long while,
Since I was last myself,
I’ve been lost in this ‘person’,
I can hardly recognize.
I lost ‘me’ someplace in this place
Some time in the walks of life,
Somewhere on this earth we trod.
I once was someone, not anymore.
I’m now a scumbag,
The kind kids haul jeers at,
For my pants are often sagging,
When I forget to wear my belt.
My children are fatherless,
They call me “DAD”-
Distanced Absent Dude
I don’t blame them.
Help me find him,
An upright handsome man,
Walked with shoulders held high,
Who smiled a brilliant smile.
Memories of days exist-
Days I put a meal on the table,
Days my friends came to me-
For expertise and finances.
Days I was consulted,
Now I feel assaulted,
Devoid of all wisdom,
Once distinguished, now in anguish.
I’d say my wife married me,
I cannot fend my own self,
Worse still- I’m like another child,
Among the sons we’ve conceived.
Our story is no “happy-ever-after”
I’m sorry it’s one tragic affair,
I wonder how I’m still pointing fingers,
At all these father-figure failures.
Doctors wouldn’t blame it on drug abuse,
Counselors couldn’t find depressants,
I’m no psycho path, they know it.
Just a human displaced in his self.
Start my heart again,
Use defibrillators if need be.
I’m done watching it squeezed out-
The little juice that’s still in me.
I’m a broken machine,
Dumped in a rusty garage,
I know one who can fix me.
The hands that made me.